Erotic Spirituality

There is nothing in this world that is unspiritual . Every creature, living thing and the seemingly dead items are being enwrought by Creator Consciousness in a more or less expanded version of Itself .
Sexual Energy when being recognized as Spirit includes our highest Potencial for Selfrealization .
Eros is an energetic potencial bringing us into relationship with Nature, Language, Art and the world itself.
Without Eros there would be no mysticism ,  no devotion in any kind of religion .
It is the driving force behind our urge for Oneness.


As Platon said , Eros is the God who brings  the creative mind into Being.
Eros calls forth the aspiration for knowingness , passionately looking for Union with truth .
The passionate search for ( Re) Union is what makes us drive & thrive,  deep down within  we know about our Oneness with all there is , and we want to experience it ! 

While riding the wave back to the Sire (de -sire ) ; physical union is only one way to come to gether in Spirit . We can use our bodies for the purpose of Union, still for the majority of Beings we come into contact with, Union through awareness is to be prefered.

As we realize that our Life energy shows itself in our bodies through our Sexual energy , we can simply stop  hindering the current from its natural circulation . The essential tool here is our breath . As soon as we remind Ourselves to breathe into whatever comes up , fear , anxiety , the need to look away ,to talk nonesence ..we allow o be devoured by Oneness itself .


One of the most painful moments for me, while sharing this world with my Brothers and Sisters come up when Individuals deny our bond and prefer to insist on seperation.
Than I call upon the words of Byron Katie ” I’m very clear that everyone in the world loves me. I just don’t expect them to realize it yet .. ” 

EROTIC NATURE

CREATURE OF LIGHT

EROTIC CREATURE

ENLIGHTENED MIND

WELCOME TO TRANSCENDENCE

BEING OF LIGHT

AN IRRESISTIBLE RAY OF LOVE

LIMITLESS POTENCIAL

AND UNSTOPPABLE SPEED

EROTIC CREATURE

HOW DEEP DO YOU WANNA GO ?

Namasté

 

Perceptions & Reflections

Went out on the streets to challenge myself and the believes I hold about me and others .

My shadow aspects by hand , my camera in the pocket and off I went .

I realized people werer reflecting my dominant state of Being and I must say most of the time I felt truly lightened up from the direct heartconnection that was established between us , so I just had to smile and to glance .

So , Your Perception of Me is just a Reflection of You .

And So it is.

This is the result . Enjoy !

What do you think about me?

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with Love

Sandra

 

Do you believe me ?

I AM SO WORTHLESS, NO ONE LOVES ME , THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST ME

Exactly ! That’s what I am always talking about , no one is gonna ever love you ! Just remember all of the bad experiences from tha past , isn’t that evidence enough for your unworthiness ? You’ll better stay here with me at a safe place so we have at least us….

OOOHHH,  I HATE YOU, IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT . NOW WATCH ME GETTING RID OF YOU !

Well my dear, If you let me go , I will die and since I am all that you have you will die with me . No matter how much you try I will chase you till the end of time to remember you how unworthy and undeserving you are !

NOW LISTEN YOU STARVING LITTLE PIECE OF MINE . I KNOW OF THE LIGHT THAT IS MISSING INSIDE OF YOUR HEART AND I KNOW VERY WELL THAT I WILL NOT DIE IF I CHANGE MY BELIEF ABOUT MYSELF . NO MATTER HOW LOUD YOU’RE MUMBLING AND JUSTIFYING MY MISERY I CAN STILL SEE THE WAY OUT OF HERE  . SO LET ME INFUSE YOU SOME OF THE LOVE YOU ARE SO PENETRATIVELY SHOUTING FOR  AND TELL YOU THAT  I AM VERY AWARE OF YOUR VALUE . IN THE EYES OF SOURCE WE ARE ALL ONE ,THAT I KNOW FOR SURE OTHERWISE WE WOULD NOT EXIST , BUT  NOW  I WILL CHOOSE AN OTHER BELIEF. SO SHUT UP AND GET OFF MY BACK,  GIVE ME SOME REST AND LET’S CONTINUE TOGETHER IN PEACE .

Are your beliefs poisoning you ? How do you deal with them  and what are they telling you ? I would love to know…

Au Revoir & Namasté

Sandra

Divine Rage

” The flame that you are burns eternally and no matter how bright you allow yourself to become , it will never go out…”

And if you don’t set proper boundaries that  allow you to follow your personal flame of excitement , you’ll freak out and store tombs of anger in the depths of your body -bones and heart . No silent sitting / observing and affirming Meditation will get you out of  there.  Either you allow yourself to go with your desires , that’s why you are angry in first place you chose the non deserving victim  , or you release the negative emotions . God bless cathartic Meditations . How sweet and true the love is that we experience after we  cry our tears and let the curses flow . May the drama pass by and the light of alertness  sort out our painful memories and bring us on an authentic and natural way towards the line with our source . If we skip the step , our actions and words will be fake , and make us even more angry as we don’t get anywhere near our flame of light  . All that  mindful practise and I am still pissed off !

There is the King of all guides, the big time Guru named ” Emotion ” .The ultimate Master of guidance . Ask Him or Her ,how does it feel doing what you are aiming to do , now in this moment ? Do you feel a tingling in your guts when you think about going there, wearing this, watching that , meeting with , eating that ? You don’t feel excited  ?  Then for god’s sake have the balls to take the option that feels best . Why ? Because it is the home of source , Love , God that speaks to us through the frequency of passion and excitement.  It is time to answer the call of joy and ride the wave of fun, everything less than contentment and passion is a waste of energy and sucks the life out of us . Except we see it as a stepping stone or a mindful meditation,if so let’s go and have some fun punching  pillows  before work , get our self to dance like a freak and speak out the words we are usually not daring to say . And after that the Good Mornig , Ooom and Yes will eventually become authentic and loving our neighbour as ourself will finally make sense and could be very sweet…

Au revoir & Namasté

Sandra

Synergy

I love cemeteries , especially here in Paris , but I never go there when I am really happy .

In 2011 I came to Paris for  the first time, without being there before I decided to move over from Germany . It was clear to me that I will live in the area of Montmartre . Until two weeks before my departure I did not find  an Appartement and I wasn’t worried at all . I was so excited  of my vision,  there was no space for doubt . And then  a friend of mine , a french girl studying in Germany , send me a message .

I was living for some month in an amazing house on the top of butte de Montmartre , for almost no costs . I popped into a beautiful neighborhood , it seemed as if everything was already arranged for me . I met my  future roommate & best friend on the trip to there, and in the first week I got into contact with those people who inspired me the most throughout the time . In front of my room was a plant named ” Pachysandra ” waiting for me . The parents of the boy who went abroad were a well-known actor and the former director of one of the biggest Theater in Paris . I was welcomed with open arms . I did not know anybody there before , there was no plan , no safety . I just knew that life is backing me up .

After six month I left the city . I came back to Germany with a heart full of guilt & pain and with no cash in my pockets . Did I fail ?

I came to Paris as an Artist . I quitted acting school in Germany , to find a place where my temperament would fit in . And to escape from my past . But I buried my drama in a huge cellar in the city where I grew up ,  and there was no way around than to  come back and dissolve it .

I dared to live my desires and to leave those behind who were afraid to do the same. I felt responsible for their suffering and sacrificed myself once more and  pretended to be a good girl willing to behave properly this time . I spend two years of grief and deep depression. The dark night of the soul overpowered me until I realized that in order to live I have to get the hell out and make an end to my victimhood.

Yes, I faced my demons . And they are still there . Thank God , cause everything that exists has its worth and until it is valued  it will chase and find us , wherever we go , til we share a little bit of our love with them . ” You  will die if you let go of your old belief system” they whisper. They are so afraid , these screwy little children of mine ,but they do not know what is love , these poor creatures , so I do my best to shed some  light to this demonish  aspect of mine starving for love .

I was convinced, that if I succeed in life , someone else will terribly suffer . So no matter how the universe showed off with opportunities & Angels on my way , I could not accept them  , my hands were full of old stories  I was terrified of  leaving behind . Who would I be without them ?

Since one year I am living in Paris again. I became successful , very much so . But not as an Artist , well can’t say that exactly, cause I am performing my work very artistically . I became a Sex worker , or  call it sexual healer . I started as a tantric Massage therapist in Germany and ended up with an  erotic Massage agency in Paris until I established my independent   clients for tantric sexual therapy . I became a star  in my field . Not in the work I desired to be , but  where I believed deserving to be .

Whenever I am at Montmartre I feel pain , as if Paris was withholding something , that I am not worth of having . Oh, yes I had a  hot chat with my demon friends today . I am about to end the chapter of the sacred prostitute, so they  try to survive   with ” who do you think you are doing what you love ” , ” there are people who need you ” …  bla bla bla

My pic of today is on the cemetery of  Montmartre , I am in a form of Synergetic Energy Exchange . We are sharing our love , hopefully realizing that we are one . The light and the absence of it .

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Au revoir & Namasté

Sandra

Project365

Day One of  Blogging365 . A dose of Enlightenment  every day , how much can I handle?

My morning started out of  a very , very dark space . I had no choice than to launch this project, in order to survive . Now that’s very dramatic . In deed, a  commitment to my creativity and to get the drama out of my blood, onto  screen , canvas, stages , a release into the creative flow. Basically posting to survive . Every day a new pic  , a new vibration riding a new story . Creativity is saving my Ass , haleluja.

Throughout my life  I compared to those who felt less , thinking I was wrong .  I was a  wild untaimed horse, yearning for my flock, or as the ugly duckling convinced of its wrongness. I  learned to be my own horse whisperer ,and to listen to  the storm inside , to  breathe , schout and howl with it . I purchased my ticket into the wild , and dare every day anew to be alive .

May the ugly creature inside of us realize it is a beautiful swan…

He did not know the name of those birds or where they were going, and yet he felt that he loved them as he had never loved any other creatures. He did not envy them. It did not even occur to him to wish that he were so handsome himself.

My morning pic,  ” Hope”

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Au Revoir & Namasté

Sandra